Tuesday. Went to my weekly tuesday class. The other pupils were already there, warming up on d'Arienzo. I put on my shoes, waiting for my partner. Then swallowed a breathmint, waiting for my partner. Then watched people dancing, waiting for my partner. Then the teachers stopped the music, and everybody gathered around them, while I was putting off my shoes and sneaking out unnoticed . Partner had not come.
Wednesday. Same story with another partner and another pair of teachers. All the rest (shoes, warming-up, breathmint, d'Arienzo) unchanged. I tried to make a few eye contacts but none of the other pupils noticed. Here I felt like Patrick Swayze in [i]Ghost[/i], when he does not know yet that he's a ghost and still tries to live among people and to communicate with them, but to no avail as they can neither see nor hear him. I felt they would validate me as their equal only when seeing me with all my attributes, and until then I would merely remain a piece of furniture.
Saturday. Went to an A.T workshop. Found a ballet class there, instead. The ballet teacher explained me that the argentine maestros had found a more spacious place and changed their plan. Of course she didn't know in which remote part of the town the A.T class was actually beginning, and in any case it was too late to go. Couldn't anyone have sent me a mail or a call?
Sunday. Had tango plans but cancelled them. What is this community? I've been in team sport before and we had relationships/friendship/life out of the contests. We had meal together before the match, we shared the same hotel and played cards all night long when having a match outside. There was the feeling of belonging to a community. Opponents from other countries invited me, and spent hours to help me solving my visa problems. Another time I picked them at the airport. Once I even found a job as a trainer/player to one of their expats.
But A.T community? Just good to make you feel you're not part of it.